2020!!!! WOW ! It has been a while since I posted, I started out with a Bang and then fizzled out.  I'm Sorry.  But wanted to start again.  I hope all is well! would love to hear from you all!

Let's get started !!

 This series of conversations is for “US” -who is us? We are the strong and determined people who despite all odds despite all criticism, despite all doubts, failures and loss.  We have Overcome !!  We are Delivered and Recovered from the terrible claws of addiction .  Who are we?  We are your sister, brothers, fathers, mothers, aunt uncles and all the rest the ones you hurt, abused, criticized oxidized, the ones you despised, hated, rejected we are the ones you loved, nurtured, pampered, spoiled and lusted over.

 

 We are  survivals and we have a story and we will tell it, share it and love it, despite the pain and confusion it causes.

 My life was a rollercoaster of successes and failures, dreams and nightmares.  I could not for the life of me understand why I could not give up the drugs that was destroying everything, even me.   After a string of arrests and imprisonments one day I decided with the help of a higher power, enough was enough ! I know it sounds too simple but it is just that simple.

 I went to some of the best rehabs, I talked to some of the best counselors, I even gave seminars and taught classes on recovery and how to stay clean but I didn't.  But when I made up my mind I was tired of the losing everything even my self esteem and and my love for myself I knew the only place I could go from there was death and did not want to die.   So I said that's it no more.

 Dont misunderstand me I said it was simple I never said it was easy.  Nothing in life worth having is easy to accomplish, it  is a daily effort every waking breath is dedicated to that one thing you want and I wanted to stay drug free. I wanted to live not just exist.

 This is not going to be your regular blog, we are going to share our fears frustrations, desires, triggers, and recovery.  I know and you know it is not easy to stay drug free daily something reminds you of getting high or something happens that makes you want to get high.  So what are we to do?  Play the whole picture If I succumb to desire what will happen, tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.  Is the

Day 2

Hi ! how you doing ? any episodes or relapses or triggers you want or need to talk about?  Well I have to share something.   last week I lost another associate to drugs.  This is a sad thing for anyone who knows about the battle of addiction.

Because of this I realize the seriousness  and how important it is for me to start this blog.  I’m going to do this blog in a entirely different angle than most.  

 My research and my personal experience is every addict wants in their hearts of hearts to stop to give up the demon that has them tied down.  But have you ever tried to get help????

Right,  to get help to really to go thru a program ,to get to a safe place where you can clean up, clear your mind, oh and sleep and eat.  You have to do one or two things go to jail/prison or pay big bucks for this service.

This necessary need is very expensive.  This is a problem because do you know any addicts who happen to have thousands of dollars laying around to pay for Rehabilitation ?  

This is where this blog is going to come in we are going to have an on line Rehab. Yep, now we will talk really talk even if you relapse we will share that experience, if you are not ready to get clean we will talk about that too.  We need a sounding board, we need a community where we can go and share and vent and let each other know we are not alone.  Who’s with me ?  

I need you and you need me, together we can not only save our lives we will also help save someone else.  You may think “I can’t help anyone I’m still using “,oh yes  you can ! Maybe someone who is thinking about trying your drug of choice read our conversations and decided, “Wow! that person is really going through it, nope I will not be using that drug. “

Now you see how this will work?  

Let’s get started !

Let me tell you a little about me Carolia Yvonne Robinson, I’m 58 years old mother of 2 adult sons, for over 25 years off and on I have battled cocaine I’ve been to prison 3 times, 5 Rehabs, and I lost count how many times I’ve been to jail.  All because of my drug addiction.

I've been clean now for approx. 8 years (who's counting) and I’m currently in college, work- full time and loving life !

 I did not say life is perfect I said I love it ! the good and the bad.  I’m currently battling with some health issues and all the other issues that comes with life in general, family, finances, etc.

But no drugs, no jails no probation so , life is Good.  Tell me about you...